It was somewhere in 2003 when I hit my first period of depression.
The work I did was taking its toll and the way it made me feel prevented me from working diligently on new music, though I wanted to.
I had already released two independent EPs before, Prelude in 2002 and Blue Like Heaven in early 2003.
Focusing the last bit of energy I had, I started working on another EP called Lifestyle, containing three songs that had a very deep meaning to me.
The first two songs were called What You Could Be (about who I wanted to become) and Burning The Torn Shell (about how I didn't manage to become it).
The third song was called The Bard's Song.
Then I couldn't do it anymore.
The song became too personal for me to write without breaking down.
In the end I never managed to complete it.
I stopped writing songs for a bit.
I went to New York alone in that summer, and after that I broke down.
A part of me died that year.
The part of me that was an artist, a bard, someone with a tale to tell.
Then I decided I was being silly, and picked myself up again.
I did record What You Could Be and Burning The Torn Shell.
And to get myself happy I recorded an old punk tune I did with a band some years earlier, called Bound.
Some part of me lived on.
But I never finished The Bard's Song.
In 2014 I thought it was silly to think that I could record an album and acutally expect people to want to hear it.
Then I thought about that old Bard's Song.
I thought to myself: "That bard is dead now. He died in 2003."
Thinking like that I suddenly understood what the song was about.
Looking at myself like a different person, thinking about 'he' instead of 'me'.
It helped me focus.
"What if I do just one more album? Just see what I can come up with?"
So the Bard's Song became the Song Of A Dead Bard.
And the album's official title is 'I Never Wrote This'.
The printed title is an anagram of I Never Wrote This.
The number code in the booklet gives that away.
Read the numbers from left to right and take that letter from the print title, and you get the original title.
Did you find it like that?
There are more ways.
The phrase 'I Never Wrote This' is present in the tracks of all of the five songs.
Of course, in Song Of A Dead Bard it is plainly audible, as sung by me.
In track 1 there is morse code in the instrumental synth solo, which spells 'INEVERWROTETHISINEVER...'
In track 3 during the fade out I sing a well known reference. If you reverse it, it'll reveal the title.
In track 4 there is a short amount of silence before the first loud verse, amplified and slowed down reveals me saying it.
In track 5, if you speed up the finale by 2003% (20.03 times) you'll hear me singing 'I Never Wrote This'.
It is a wonder you have heard my album.
There is another world, a world in which I never wrote it.
But there is more.
Who killed the bard?
Of course, the answer is in the lyrics.
Just look at the responsible three...
Take care, and see you in another world.